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11.11.02 - midnight
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Barbarian Rage: Barbarian temporarily gains +4 to Strength, +4 to Constitution, and a +2 morale bonus on Will saves, but suffers a –2 penalty to AC. [d20-http://wizards.com/D20/article.asp?x=srd] sorry if you read my last entry, saw me in rage mode, and saw a part of me you haven't seen before. i was really upset. i realised what has been bugging me about some people, my close friends to be specific. I went hyper because some of them have decided to jump on their soap boxes and scold me about certain things & behavior. maybe they scolded me because i have been the only one sensitive enough to notice things, and I invited them to open up and talk to me. I guess that's my fault. i'm also probably pissed because i get lumped and blanketed into situations that I have nothing to do with.
--- i'm listening to the new Godspeed You! Black Emperor album "Yanqui U.X.O." it's another masterpiece from a band that makes the music closest to the soundtrack of my life (not TSOOL who are also excellent.) They have about 15 or so songs spanning 3 albums and an EP. But each song averages about 15 minutes. They're one of my favorite bands, they make epic music pieces that are in the same vein as Mogwai, Arab Strap, Tortoise, etc. It's very emotional stuff, no lyrics and almost orchestral. It's sometimes refered to as Chamber Rock, I don't knwo what that means tho. It's great music for long drives and to think to, which I've been doing a lot of lately.
--- yesterday was James's & Kellie's 1st Year Anniversary. I'm so happy for them. Kyla seems to be doing awesome. A bunch of us went to see Episode 2 on IMAX, how big. It's been edited a lot, a bunch of silly love story scenes were deleted. that's a GOOD THING. we later ate at Buca de peppo's. I like that place, but the service was horrendous that night. it was late, no one could decide what they wanted to eat.
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10.11.02 - 11:17 PM
to play a part, pretend
Middle English ipocrisie, from Old French, from Late Latin hypocrisis, play-acting, pretense, from Greek hupokrisis, from hupokrnesthai, to play a part, pretend : hupo-, hypo- + krnesthai, to explain, middle voice of krnein, to decide, judge; see krei- in Indo-European Roots. i know i'm not the most perfect fool. i know i have some double standards. and i know i don't always practice what i preach. there's been several things that have been irritating me lately. one of the big things are people, that i care about, preach one way, to the point I'm getting SCOLDED AT, and then do EXACTLY what they scold me about. it's a bunch of FUCKING CRAP. Practice what you fucking preach you pieces of shit. don't go around implying people are immature when you can't fucking be civil in public. Don't go around criticizing childish behavior and proceed to run around screaming at the top of your lungs obscenities. Don't go around telling people that "friends don't treat friends like that" and proceed to treat your friends like shit. I took all your words to heart and held back what you were calling "childish" behavior, only to watch you go off like a total hypocrit. I'm tired of being the one getting scolded for certain behavior, when the ones doing the scolding are the ones instigating it to begin with. If you don't know what I'm talking about, talk to me personally to clarify before you start another stupid conspiracy. communicate. End Rant
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